And then there were three
I can't quite explain the peace I felt last night after such a beautiful day. I asked Fraser to be with me/us yesterday and his presence was more than felt. It allowed me to remain present for the entire day. I missed a few but wanted to welcome each person as they arrived. It was an honour to hug/shake hands with each person that Fraser brought to us yesterday....including virtual hugs.🙏 We estimated nearly 250 people at his celebration and about 80 online.I simply could not have asked for a better, more beautiful day.
How incredibly beautiful. I am honoured to have shared my Man with so many wonderful people....and yes, I am just going to remember the good stuff. That's what's left behind. I feel like the fights etc. were so ego/human driven because they seem so meaningless now....besides, from this perspective I was right and won every argument...obviously.
I miss not only Fraser's touch, but the safety he offered me. It was like he'd wrap me up in his arms and not only could I feel the hug, I could sense it. That's what I miss...but the cool thing about 'sensing' is that I don't have to rely on physical touch to feel connected. That's what I felt all day yesterday. Connection.
I would only change three things about his ceremony:
I wish I would have told people the cardboard cutout was made for his 50th birthday...not for this celebration. (That seems weird) We would hide it behind the bathroom door for his birthday so people would sit down and have Fraser peering over them. We thought it was hilarious! ....it has remained a source of entertainment over the years, so we kept it. I still like 'booping' him on the nose when I go past.
I wish I would have connected with everyone on zoom just a bit more and that we had the ability to show the people in the rooms. I am so grateful you were able to be there.
The copper dog (the copper tube I was carrying) was NOT his ashes. 😁 It was used by distillery workers in the early 1900's to steal whisky from the barrels. His family in Scotland had one made especially for Fraser. They had his name engraved and sent it, unbeknownst to him, a few days before he collapsed....he had no idea it was going to arrive. It was an honour to carry it with me yesterday...and have a few sips of one of his favourite Scotches throughout the day.
Please join us, again, to watch the recording here. The ceremony begins around the 9 minute mark.
Xo, Brooke
I'm so pleased you are feeling some peace. It was a unique and special celebration. No standing for hymns!!!
I doubt people would think you made the Fraser cut out for the celebration, although thinking about people thinking that is hilarious.
I did wonder what you were carrying around but I knew you'd never treat his ashes so casually. But thinking about people thinking that, is also hilarious.
I hope you rest easy again tonight. You continue to impress me, for whatever that's worth. Hug the kids for me.
It truly was a beautiful ceremony for Fraser, he wrapped his arms around you and helped you through the day, just as he will be there until your souls are together again. Love to you all ❤️
It was a beautiful ceremony Brooke you did so amazing! So proud of you and your family ♥️🥰🤗