October 22nd 8:12 a.m.

Today is a new day.🙏

They are lowering Fraser’s oxygen meaning he’s doing more breaths on his own again and are they trying to bring him slowly out of sedation. Slowly. I feel like each time they do this it gets 10% better. But still really hard to watch him have those days when he needs the machine to do most of the work (like yesterday). :/

They will likely insert a tracheotomy and feeding tube in the next day or so as it’s too long for the ventilator to be in his mouth. The Resp. Specialist told us she can hear more air in his lungs today so that is good. They know which pneumonia they are fighting now too so they can direct the antibiotic better. The onions are working. ☺️

He still has no ‘medical reason’ not to respond when he’s off sedation but I’m just thinking he’s just catching up on all those naps he refused to take when he was tired. We may take bets on who is important enough to open his eyes for. 😁I’ve been whispering all sorts of things in his ear…Healing kinds of things people! Healing!😉

Jeannette drew me a bubble bath yesterday and got me lunch and a glass of wine. Kim and Steve have been mowing our lawn (I would have left it for the snow arriving soon to cover it) and Michaela is watching Faya (don’t tell Fraser she’s now allowed on the couch. Well, she was before but we just didn’t tell Fraser. 🤫). And the prayers and support for all of you is, well, there really are no words that can touch the amount of gratitude for all the love and support we are receiving.

The words are empty without the emotion received. So remember, as I may or may not have told someone (ahem, Jeannette), when someone says thank you, you can say, ‘you’re welcome’ or ‘I got you’. But to say we, ‘don’t need to say thank you’ is really hard. I have to say something for acknowledgment! If we get to receive all that we are, then you can all receive a thank you…with all the emotion and gratitude that comes with that.

I know it’s hard and it feels helpless from only a few feet away and I can’t imagine what it’s like for many of you wanting to do something but can’t. Perhaps soon we will be able to ask for what we need…and again, huge lessons in learning that asking is not a weakness but a strength.🙌