Perhaps this is why they call it Sunrise Hospital. Thought this was a perfect pic of the outside beauty and the tubes providing life within. 🙏
Today is a new day💕
10:20AM
Waiting on results from EEG/ECG/chest x-ray…initial thoughts are fluid on R. lung
He slept well last night although he was fully sedated and on full ventilation. They removed his sedation at 4 am and he seems to be doing ok…and they also moved him to CPAP.
He seems to fight the machine🤨 He is ok with it doing all of the work or none of it with little in-between. His BP remains high and the more drugs he gets it seems the more he needs.
Neurosurgeon will be coming shortly.
I’m tired and slept only 4 hours but I did get to go to our friend’s hotel for a shower. Felt much more human-like although it was a bit jarring going from this place of (being?) to The Strip. Not sure if it’s because of all the beeps and pings here but all those lights and sounds etc….😳It was a tad overwhelming! But the fooood….oh yum!! Definitely better than the hospital food. Mind you, what isn’t better than hospital food? It’s almost like the food does the opposite of healing and nutritional support. I should give them some tips😆
3:30pm
Neurosurgeon update: they still don’t know what caused Fraser to collapse and might never. ‘Baffled’. (IYKYK) The good news is he still strongly feels his brain needs to heal from the concussion-like symptoms and his biggest work ahead will be physical therapy due to lying in bed for so long. Every day here is 3 days Physio…they don’t know we are fully equipped once we get home to continue his physical work once he’s cleared by Physio. ☺️ He still feels he just needs to open his eyes and get awake!
He is still fighting a bacterial pneumonia infection which they continue to give medications for. I am not kidding you when I say we are putting onions and garlic in his feet tonight. Say what you will but the doctor said we can try ‘whatever vampire medicine you want as I’ve seen it work’. So we will try. 🤞I’ve got more healing medicine I’m giving him and I’ll go with ‘that kooky lady’ in Rm. 2810.😁
Blood pressure likely due to the trauma of being here and what happened, whatever that may be.
He is sedated and fully ventilated still. That allows his body to heal and rest as he gets quite agitated and his whole body tenses. He may not have to go to the gym for a while he’ll be so strong from just lying here tensing all his muscles for hours. (Jk, but we need some happy relief, right?)
Kids will be here shortly which will be amazing. Man are we blessed to have the team of prayers surrounding us. It is pretty amazing to feel so supported. I know people say they are sending their thoughts and prayers and feel they have to justify it. We believe in Divine healing and are fully open to any and all modes and methods of healing thoughts and prayers. It’s not silly…it’s necessary and very real….as long as you don’t just say it and actually do it. 😉
Not much else to report! Oh…one thing. Super important…Apparently stress makes you SMELL. It’s not unbearable but I certainly ‘notice’ myself😆 every now and then! Darren and Irene brought me to their hotel on the strip where I had an amazing view of the Sphere AND I SHOWERED!! I have little ‘bird baths’ (thanks Laurie) every day as well…Ah the reality of where we are. Didn’t want you to think I got off scot free just by being here. 🙌
Much love to all and YES, thoughts AND prayers are welcome 🙏
Forgot to mention how much Fraser loves doing ALL the exercises and movements I tell him to. This is going to go great! 😁😆💕
8:45PM
Jeannette and kids arrived safe and sound tonight.🙏 Kids were able
to spend some time with Fraser, and like me, in the beginning, it’s hard to know how to talk to him and how to hold his hand without feeling like you’re going to hurt him or move a needle or something…or, God forbid, to make a machine beep!! 😳 I tried to acquaint them with the machines and all the ‘things’ helping support him while he heals.
I feel hopeful tonight and the onions are going on the feet asap…if that doesn’t annoy him enough to wake up I have more things up my sleeve. Lol They don’t have an explanation of why he isn’t responsive when they remove sedation but my gut feeling is this is the time he needs to heal and get out of the fight/flight his brain has been in for longer than this experience. I believe he is experiencing the great ‘All’ and getting reacquainted with his Self. I really like my scenario if I say so myself. Proof of Heaven is an incredible book written by a neurosurgeon. I have three copies as I lend it out a lot and gives me comfort for where he is.
So, kids are settled. I am in my ICU ‘nest’ and Fraser’s body is stabilizing (just need to get the pneumonia worked out) while he experiences the love of God (you can call that whatever you may). We have so so so many people sending their love and it is so felt over here.
From the bottom of our hearts, truly, words do not even seem to express our gratitude. A wise friend told me, ‘words are empty. However, when we experience them it means they become alive providing what is needed as a gift’. Profoundly true Ana💕
If all goes well when they remove his sedation in the a.m. I have promised the kids and Loreen I will take some time for me and force myself to go to the Bellagio spa with Jeannette. My back feels old and a massage or hot tub might actually feel really really really good. It’s the least I can do to thank her😁…it’s actually really hard to leave (everyone knows this) but I also need to allow his family to find their way through this with him themselves. The art of letting go…way more fun to say all those catchy phrases and way more difficult to put it into practice.
I am finally tired. Still don’t have the tears when I ‘cry’ (sob? Heave?) but they’ll come I’m sure. And I will try to update a little more often as there have been some worried people out there. I’m hoping as time goes on there will be less need to post….and Caelin told Fraser he better wake up because, ‘DAD, Mom is BLOGGING! Wake up!’ 🤣 We are surrounded by amazingness. And that is a word because I just typed it.
Sweet dreams all, tomorrow is a new day ❤️
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