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Well the white sand has changed to white snow…same same but with different footwear options?? Grateful to not be coming home to super cold at the same time though, that’s for sure! ‘Easing’ into winter in December seems doable. Although Christmas seems more real with snow. The Christmas carols and decorations in Hawaii made it feel like they just forgot to take down their decorations and change their playlists….for months! Hey, some places are perpetual Christmas villages, how am I supposed to know?! Mele Kalikimaka is the thing to say.😉 (ear worm; sorry...not sorry)
When I got home I cozied up by the fire and cast my photos on the tv. As I shared some of my trip I was asked if I had any ‘epiphanies’ while I was away. Oh man did I want to have something so profound that some of ‘this’ would finally make sense.
Picture it; (cue music) a Widow’s Spiritual Journey with Grief. An epiphany so profound it would lead us all to gasp; and then dance and cry with joy. We could shout, 'OF COURSE! It all makes sense now!!'.
That’s not a lot to ask right? Ok, back to reality. Maybe it's a little over the top and totally NOT Fraser’s style…BUT, it definitely has the makings of a Hallmark Christmas Special don’t you think? It was fun for a moment.
Fine. If I can’t have something super profound and 'Hallmark worthy', then maybe a little sign here and there that you’re with me? I didn’t want to try and force significance so thought I’d try to be more specific than ‘show me you’re with me’…although, that really should be enough. I mean, he can’t be nowhere if he is everywhere, and that includes being right here with me, right?One cannot be separate from the whole without still being a part of the whole.
Some people say they get dimes from loved ones in the All. I asked for hearts….I think he did ok💕
And maybe I AM forcing significance…and who cares! If it brings me peace and connection so be it! I can make it mean something if I want to. That’s the least I get to have.
Thank you for having my back, Fraser…but more importantly, thank you for sharing your heart(s) with me. ♥️ …and also the turtle I sat beside; the humpback whales; the ‘cellular’ feeling of the water surrounding the heart rock that lie below (to name just a few magical moments)…those were pretty amazing too. We did good. Then and now. Thank you for the beautiful reminder of the All.
I love you,
Brooke
Happy to hear you are home safe. If you feel Fraser is with you, then of course he is with you. Faya will be happy her mommy can cuddle her again.
Hawaii IS weird at Christmas time. Got there on the 26th one year. Very odd for prairie folk. But I could get used to it. Your turtle friends will miss you.