December 13 10:10pm

Water

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I took this photo about 1 foot above the water...I was trying to capture a snapshot of the heart shaped rock below. I am still in awe. I have never seen water captured like this.🙏

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I had some beautiful revelations during a mediation this morning. They brought me calm and peace throughout my day today. After such an emotional day yesterday, I needed it. I needed some peace ….but it could be exhaustion…do feelings count on the Apple Watch ‘health’ data thingy? I feel like I’m running some kind of emotional marathon…there must be a ‘ring’ for that?! (I was recently introduced to the ‘closing of the rings’ when you complete tasks🤷🏼‍♀️)

I found peace while snorkelling in Hawaii as well (hard not to, right?!). While I was close to the reef but looking out into the ‘abyss’ it occurred to me it reflected my connection with Fraser. The water surrounded me; but if I tried to hold it I couldn’t…it was not separate from any of the other water. The tighter I wanted to hold it as I squeezed my hand the less I could hold….and there was always more beyond what I could see or feel around my body. It was endless and limitless. It was All around me.

So, I had to let ‘to’. And I say that rather than let ‘go’ because I feel like letting ‘to’ allows for forward momentum while letting ‘go’ feels like falling away….and that’s way too scary and vulnerable right now.

My next vision was a sailboat (catching the water theme anyone? It was truly unintentional). I envisioned Fraser sailing away to his new destination…which, of course is the ‘All’. Not really a ‘destination’ in this physical sense, but more of an expansion.

The tears we cry fill a ‘void’ to allow our loved ones who have passed to set sail. And they aren’t getting further, they are actually getting closer to us. Each tear allows an opening for healing so we can experience our loved ones in a new way….and allows them to set sail to their new way of experiencing the All. …it’s like a great big ‘void lagoon’ with sail boats and sunsets and rainbows…and pure Love. Like…amazeballs, right?!

So, to those of you uncomfortable with this uncharted territory of tears (one good friend told me he thought he must be getting his period because he’s so emotional😁…I told him I could kick him in his abdomen too if wanted…he declined) I am beyond grateful you are shedding them so Fraser can sail towards us. Let the tears fall when they arise if you can. Don’t get caught in their crest…it’s a lot more turmoil once they all find each other and you can’t control it. The riptide can take you out to a place that’s hard to return from on your own.

In fact, another tip is…if you tend to avoid funerals, maybe go to them! It’s the perfectly appropriate place to shed tears without feeling like you might be judged. People will be honoured you are shedding tears for their loved ones…even if you are only there for the crustless, triangle egg-salad sandwiches and to shed tears for someone else…tears don’t have ownership; let them flow…all our loved ones need it to set sail and we need it to allow healing. 💕

Xo, Brooke